Thursday, March 3, 2011

That DC State of Mind

I just wanted to preface this blog with sorry about the delay, this doc has been open on my computer’s desktop for almost a week now and I kept telling myself that it needed some more filler…. Yeah, unfortunately a short blog is really better than a really out of date blog…. Sorry guys!

Hello there, greetings from Washington DC, the city in which I now reside! YEAH! At any rate, last Friday, an entire week and three days ago I loaded all of my earthly possessions into a rental truck and with the help of my best friend, drove all the way to DC overnight. The drive was pretty uneventful, and my best friend was an absolute life saver driving way more than I had even imagined he would. The end result, a safe trip for us, and a reunited family! The puppy dog has been absolutely thrilled to have his mom back in our pack. =)

With the big move came a huge milestone in my life…. I went fulltime! Now instead of being androgynous or in “boy mode” most of the time, I am me 100% of the time! All I can say is WOW! Though super duper scary, everything is slowly coming together. I can’t even begin to tell you how much better DC is than rural Florida for transitioning. People around here treat you like you’re invisible no matter whether your trans or cis. Either way, you’re just another body walking down the street to them. For me, this is good for now. I mean honestly I am transitioning to be treated as the gender I identify as, not be ignored by everybody. But being ignored by everybody is way better than feeling like a freakshow!

So, with that being said, my new life is primarily consumed with worrying about whether I pass or not, and not always if I pass or not as much as if I will ever pass…. I have gotten some feedback from people I know and/or talk to online and for the most part the consensus is that I am good to go, and the rest is just refinements that will only come with time and practice. I on the other hand see a boy when I look into the mirror. I believe I have talked about the Beer Goggles, and now I am seeing the girl in me without the aid of alcohol, but it is just not enough to feel confident about the whole shebang!

Aside from all of that, I have finally gotten to unpack and hang up my wardrobe in its entirety, well almost entirety, there are a bunch of boxes labeled “Do not open” which contain the safety net…. Those are the “If all else fails and I have to get a job stat” mess of blah…. Lets hope that it doesn’t come to that!

Finally, I am super duper excited about the prospect of becoming politically involved here regarding trans issues. It is not uncommon for me to have an opinion about all things political, but I actually want to be out educating the public that we as trans people do exist and that we are not the monsters some would like you to think…..

1 comment:

  1. Congrats on the move and going full time! I'm fairly close to DC myself and have found it to be a pretty open place, and you're right about fading into the crowd. About the only strange interactions I've had have been on the metro and they were from school kids on a field trip. Have fun!